Unappreciated

Let me first state this, there is certain times I wish I could fine tune who could read this and couldn't, but that would defeat my purpose for this blog.  I wanted a blog where I could publicly state my feelings, thoughts, and journey through weight loss.  With that being said, I know some of you who talk behind my back to the doctor and probably patients, read this to keep up with me, because I have blocked you on Facebook and you have come to know that I really am not your friend.  That's what happens when you treat people terrible.  They treat you with respect while they have to, but I no longer have to.  I never have respected you and never will, you are a lazy, disrespectful, liar, and just all around bad person.  If you are reading this and taking offense to this, then good.

As I have stated many times over and over - I am still working for the office I left a few months ago.  That's about to change.  I am placing the orders for this month, making a few signs, and sending some emails - I am finished.  I am really done with being unappreciated and disrespected.  I was trying to be the bigger person in the situation and do the right thing.  I have never been paid for anything I have done since I left the office including the trip back to the said office for the commercial.  I feel that I deserve better than that.  Even if I see that they don't.  And that "they" is not everyone in the said office.

I think I am mostly hurt because the people that said "I always had their back" and that were my "friends" ( I had VERY few actual friends in LA), are the ones being the most ignorant.  There is so much I could say about them, so much.  Things I chose to be too small of an issue to bring up to the boss, I felt like I was being being petty, but I wasn't they were being wrong - and I should have said something.  And I am.

If you are a real and true friend of mine, then you know I will do anything for you - that's legal - I do have some boundaries.  I will sacrifice things to help real friends out, I honestly love helping people that will be there for me.  And in LA especially it was hard for me to find those people, so the ones that I did consider a true friend I went above and beyond for on most occasions.  I mean in all honesty - I even did it for people I didn't really like.  Like leading them all around Houston on my birthday weekend.  It was supposed to be a weekend getaway for me and Luis - to get away from people that aggravated me at work - well that doesn't work so well, when they are literally following you.

So in closing, enjoy it while you can because things are about to change!

Life and the funny things that you come across...

Today is one of those days, where I look back and think of the funny things I have come across.  The simple people, the complex people +Brent Frick (LOL), the hilarious things that happen, and the impact I have had on peoples lives - both good and bad.

I have found, even with myself, whenever you are talking about someone else and seeing what they are doing as bad (even if it isn't) you are trying to cover something up in your person life by attacking someone else.  I worked with someone like that, at my last job.  This person was my "friend" to begin with but by the end hated me and bad mouthed me anytime this person had the chance.  After talking to an old friend today, it dawned on me why this person hated me so much.  I had the life this person wanted.  Even though my life isn't this amazing fairy tale type thing, I'd like to think I have a pretty blessed and amazing life and work hard for everything in it.  I have a wonderful supporting and love husband and our relationship is always great with continued work - like EVERY relationship, I have made amazing friends in multiple states and even countries,  I have had very personally fulfilling career - no matter what it was, and I have a supportive family both mine and my husbands. (supportive in their own ways  - haha)  Sure I have fertility problems, weight issues, and trust problems - which I am extremely vocal/honest about to everyone I meet, but I always strive to over come those things.  I lost the weight - its a continue worked for keeping it off, dealing with both the fertility and trust problems - and I might add trying to make all things better.  I always have goals, then I even have more goals.  What the most important goal to me?  Always trying to be better than I was a day ago, an hour ago, a year ago - that is my goal.  I always strive to be my best.  Though, there are days where you just want to give up - sure we ALL have them.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that if you hate me because I am trying to better myself - Thanks!! You motivate me to keep trying to be better.

That also goes for people who talk about other behind their backs.  I always like to find out that people that I haven't thought about in a while are still talking about me.  I am happy that I made such an impact on their life, that they take the time out of their day, their life to still talk about me - whether  I made them happy, glad or just plain miserable.  That again is just more motivation to keep on being the awesome person I am becoming and will never stop growing!

In all fairness, the great people I have met and had an impact on their life is far greater than the haters that I have impacted.  But usually its the haters that you hear about rather than the best people - because those best people you never lose contact with.  Just the haters - because they were probably being fake and not worth you time to begin with!